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Don't Get Near Me, PMS!

10:23 PM 2 Comments

Three days ago, I was having a lunch in some cafeteria with my friend Linda, and her boyfriend Andy. Everything was alright except my back pain, my joint pain, my bloated abdomen and breasts. Then the disaster came,



Andy:”Elle (That’s what my friends call me) you look sick. Are you alright?” He asked
Me:“I am alright.”
Andy: “Are you sure? You look like a big tired elephant.” He laughed.
I’m trying to control my emotion with taking a really deep breath. I just want to be alone. I guess my face turned red or something.
Linda: “Leave her alone, okay?”
Andy (still with his annoying smiling face):” She looks like a balloon with her red face and everything.”
I couldn’t control my anger and I point my finger at him.
Me:” Shut up!” I stood up and took my bag and left with anger, going back to my house.
I lock myself in the rest room and crying heavily. 
Have something like this ever happened to you?

My First Posting

2:36 AM 3 Comments

Well, I finally made a blog. And it's my first posting!
I don't really understand how to blog, I hope somebody could tell me what should I do...

I begin with introduction, well I don't know why should I even introduce myself, but it's just me...
Well, I just hope a blog means a new life. I want to start living to a new positive ways, and have friends here to support me. Coz, well in my real life I'm just a loser, I don't even have a lot of friends, and I blame my big fat butt I have here. Thanks 'butt' for getting me to become a low-esteem person. I'm just felling so lonely, I'm single and unhappy with it, the worst part is my family always ask when will I get married.

But, well I want to make a change. And make 10 list I have to do for changing my damp life. Maybe, I'll just post it here.

My 10 life changing to do lists:
1. Think forward. When picking clothes I have to wear... well just think what people would say when I pick clothes or which part of my body will get criticized people.
2. Get myself SLIM.. Lose some weight, okay..
3. Stop drinking any kind of alcohol.
4. Become better in every aspects of my life
5. Have more friends.
6. Learn about diet, and anything that will make me lose some of this hanging fat.
7. Learn to speak in front of public.
8. Write in my blog regularly... I don't know about this.
9. Hmm... I don't even know what else. It doesn't have to be 10 right? Maybe if I find a new thing in the future I'll just have to add it here...

Do I need professional help, I don't know...